I have been taking the time to refelct. It is as if I'm simply looking through a window watching my past simply go by. I miss those days and I really didn't realize it until Monday night. I had been needing to talk with an old friend and when we had actually aranged the time to meet, that had just happened to be around the same time as when I had planned to hangout with friends at bowling. We planned to talk after and they were going to bowl separate from us. 
The entire time we were bowling I kept noticing that this person kept watching me and I thought they were just wondering when I was going to say something. But as the evening went on I realized that they were watching me the way they use to. When we finished bowling they came up to me and asked if we were still going to talk. At this point all the memories of when we use to hangout had come back to me and as I made my way to the door, he gave me that old stupid grin that I had recieved way to many times.
We talked and simply by the end of it all, things were fixed but I realized I lost one of my oldest friends. It's sad when I look back now and I can't help but feel regret for letting things end up this way. 
I look back now and so many of my old friends are gone now, my old friendships are now my history and it is sadening. I miss the old days when things were simple and easy. Truthfully I'm not the same as I was, but I can't help but wish time had stayed still.
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