Celebrating 21 Years Of Existence

In the past few days a lot has occurred, I turned 21 and went on a trip, out to dinner twice, movies, bowling, and hung out with my friends; and I loved every minute of it. You never know just how much people care about you till they make the time to show you. I truly loved every moment of it even though I do have to say my absolute favorite part was traveling up to Orlando for the day with Justus.

It was so much fun especially since it was my first time actually being the one driving up to Orlando. I also was glad to just be able to spend the time with him for the entire day. I was surprised by something though, grant you we've known each other for a few years we were not close all of them but got closer and I thought I knew quite a bit of information, I learned more about Justus in that one day then I think I've ever learned in the time I've know him. I am so glad we got to the opportunity to do that trip just because I got to know of the coolest people I know all that much better. I also know you are going to read this most likely Justus and I want you to know that. :) Maybe God had everyone not be able to go so we could have the day to ourselves and if so I am so very glad He did.


The night we all went to City Place was my other favorite part of the experience be then I got to have a whole bunch of different friends, some did not know any of the others, and have them all in one place and have dinner with them all and hang out as well. I know some were going to have the waiter sing and that was nice of you, but I'm very glad he did not and that it ended up in Justus' desert instead of mine! ;P But it was so much fun seeing people who were important to me meet the others that were just as important and to have them start some what of a friendship. I have some very great friends and it is taking a lot of time to truly and fully realize this. I love each one of you, even if you were unable to come, and am so very thankful for all of you in my life. What can I say other then that I am truly blessed to have every single one of you in my life and that all of the things lost in the process were worth it, because I would not change a thing from who and where I am today.

January 10, 2009 City Place

Concuring Regret

Days have past and questions still remain, "What is the goal of man if not to serve the one who created us?", this question lingers and does not leave. For anything I may think can easily be proven wrong. Many in this world are lost and seeking, others find pleasure in the hear and now, while still some don't care and simply are satisfied. But astonishingly there is one last group left unmentioned, those who believe they are doing what is expected simply because they said a simple prayer. What if they were told that all these things were wrong and that we are not to only just be, but to be something changed. What would become of their train of thought, what would they say or better yet do. This is the greatest part of uncertainty for how do we address this, for we are suppose to be lights in the dark would; but the light implied does not come with a light switch, which means it must shine constantly. For many this task is hard, because they are so wrapped up with what they want and are doing; but the challenge is to not be the way that the rest of the world thinks but that of our Lord and Savior wishes us to be like.

Keeping all of this in mind the decisions we make today greatly impact us in our tomorrows. Lately I have been troubled with what has been for the past couple of years, the way a very dear friend and I handled an argument ended our very close friendship. I can't help but wish we had done what would have been expected of us, instead of doing what we wanted in the fact of holding grudges and not truly whole heartily forgiving one another. I miss him greatly and in the past couple of days the very thought of him haunts me, its saddening to think that one person you can be so close with can be gone from you just like that.

The decisions we make today are oh so very important, no matter how small they may seem.